Soooo, I guess I should explain what happened? ☺
My parents + the ED-facility in my city have been busy for a while now, dragging me into court so I could get forced treatment for my ED. A necessary step in such a “route” is a conversation between me and a by a judge appointed psychiatrist.
And that psychiatrist came to visit me last Wednesday. He asked me to explain my view on everything that had been going on lately and I tried to do so the best I could. When, after half an hour of talking, he suddenly dropped a bomb: “the physician and I have already decided that your situation is too dangerous for both you and your family, so you’re going to the psychiatric ward right now. You can either step with me and your mother in the car, or I will call the police and the hospital to get you there by force” (even my mom was shocked he said this, she really did not expect it). And since I didn’t think I would enjoy being anaesthetized and put in solitary confinement, I agreed to go with him.
And this might sound superweird, but I actually like it here. Well, I kinda hate it, but my day has a routine, I am allowed to go to school and make my exams, I get to do whatever I want, as long as I behave “normal”, I can go on walks with the staff members/family/friends… it’s basically a normal life again, only behind locked doors and with medication* to keep me from going bat-shit crazy.
All they want to do is get me out of here as soon as possible, so they actually listen to you and work together with you. Sometimes I’m bored, sometimes I feel scared, sad and angry, but I can talk about it and I feel safe here. The worst thing is that the others here are pretty high on their meds/are mentally obstructed by their disorders, so I don’t have a lot of people to chat with. I had one friend, L., who was really positive and fun to be with, but he was forced to move to a different ward last night. I cried a little after he left ☹ But we’re going to keep in touch. Plus I’ve got some friends visiting soon.
I’ll just prepare for another week of school (can’t believe I’m saying this, but YAY!) and find some distractions ☺
*the medication I wanted to get about a week ago was here prescribed to me within a day.